“Do you really think you hear from God?” She was a marketing editor of a popular magazine and she wanted me to advertise my book with her. When I explained that money was short because God had required a large gift and I gave it. I could hear her sarcasm.
“I do, and I did hear from God,” I was resolute.
I would do anything for God, even the impossible.
It was January of 2019 and after an extended fast and seeking God, He asked me if I trusted Him. Of course I trusted Him. Then He said the unthinkable, give me all you have in your account. Like the poor widow, I gave all I had. I wasn’t sure why He needed it, but He wanted my heart and obedience.
“I am totally confused! Let me get this straight, you couldn’t work because of the cancer you battled for two years. You have no income except your pension and part-time teaching at a college and you gave everything that you did not have to give,” she chuckled as if she had just found someone certifiable for the looney bin.
“Yes, you are correct!”
“Then I seriously question if you ever heard from God. He is not going to ask for what you can’t give,” her words stung.
“Sorry you think otherwise, but I know my Father’s voice and I’d obey Him above all logic,” I heard strength in my voice even though I felt totally depleted.
“Good luck Jill, you’ll need it!”
“No luck needed!”
Click, the phone went dead, and I began to think of everything that has happened since I gave all that I had.
First, my two month old refrigerator died and we lost a couple hundred dollars of food. Then one of my horses collicked and got double pneumonia. Then I got audited (they found nothing wrong). I had two college classes that I was supposed to teach get cancelled due to lack of attendance. I got certified to teach online and no department at the college have picked me up.
Instead of receiving a huge blessing I have had only turmoil, but I told God that it does not matter what happens, I will do all that He asks even when it doesn’t make sense.
Have you ever stepped out in faith only for others to question you? Please share!
Jill Mansor, wrote FIGHTING FOR THE FINISH, and published it while battling one of the most aggressive cancers. This book is a testimony of how she came to accept JESUS Christ. It is available on Amazon and http://www.jillmansor.com.
Jill is a speaker and author. Her articles have been featured in national and international magazines. She continues to witness and share her faith on her mission field at RAISE YOUR DREAMS FARM.